This is a very personal post. I am bearing my soul to you: letting you in on a secret. I have an addiction. I’ve been in denial and am now in a place that I can write about it. I still don’t really believe it.
The good news is that my addiction is manageable, and nowhere near as bad as it can get. The bad news is that it is potentially terminal, and particularly harmful to those closest to me.
The acronym I have found and used that helps me realise that I have a problem is CAGE. It stands for Cut Angry Guilty Eye-opener. It is a reminder of four questions – if you answer Yes to two of the four, then there is a chance you are addicted.
Yes – I do feel as though I need to Cut down. Thankfully, no – I don’t get Angry if someone points out the problem. Yes – I do sometimes feel Guilty. No – I don’t show symptoms of an Eye-opening addiction behaviour, such as driving round the corner when a walk would be only slightly longer.
What? Driving round the corner? What’s he on about?
The addiction I have is to carbon use. I’m almost certain that you have the addiction too, even though we both know that our mental and physical health is suffering and the long term damage is unspeakable. If you don’t accept this, there is a strong possibility that you are in denial. If you get angry at the accusation (or for example if someone tells you not to fly abroad for a holiday or to switch off your lights or car) then see the “A” in CAGE.
I can’t seem to kick the habit. I still get on the computer or phone regularly – I can’t seem to stop myself. There is no way I seem to be able to make a meal or sandwich without including meat or cheese if there is some available. It’s an awful temptation to get in the car to take the kids swimming rather than learn how to ride a bike properly.
I’ve found a very useful website that can help, to diagnose, help with understanding and provide tips on how to break the habit.
Sorry to have to break it to you like this.